Catharsis long overdue....

Both my room partners have gone to pursue their respective internships. i am home alone. and i am yet to decide whether i am loving the experience or loathing t. well i have a month's time to figure it out. Sitashwa left by the 6 pm flight, and this time when i go to my room, i would know that i am going to be alone for the next month.... can almost feel the sentiment sitting at the college. i am ok with being alone...cant say the same about being lonely.

Generally when i am alone, i do not miss anyone. but, when i am lonely, i find myself lost in the middle of the best parties and people. There is the loneliness of heart and there is the loneliness of space. The former is a real pain in the a#$@ i tell u. lets change the topic..i think its getting overloaded with sentiapa.

6 months of the course have passed..and it seems as if i set foot in Chennai yesterday. The auto drivers are still the same blood sucking lot, the weather tests your patience, the water plays the role of Brutus, the food is a moody mistress, the classes are unending, the tests are fleeting moments of death, the marks are the mirror which show the face of the topper as the most beautiful, the mosquitoes love u as usual and leave the love marks, the stench of the Nullahs still betrays the effectiveness of the overbridges, the nights are short and the days are shorter, the assignments are the modern form of "Begar" or bonded labor... i can go on and on...

u must be thinking why i am complaining so much... i am not complaining, the reason for which i came to chennai is as strong a motivator as it ever was, i am trying to say that i am motivated INSPITE of all these problems.

Hey!!! some days ago, i got to see a wholly different side of Chennai. I went to the Golden Beach resort along with some of my friends, it was 8:30 pm and it was a full moon night. What can i say...i was in awe of the theme based architecture of the resort, little could i have imagined the beauty which awaited me at the beach...

As we were getting closer to the beach, we could hear the intermittent roars of the sea, we could not see it but could feel the wind on our faces. when i saw the beach..for a moment i forgot i was in the Chennai i know, it was beautiful, it was cool and yes it was a bit intimidating.

There was the sea, totally unmindful of our presence, romancing the moonlight. the crabs were going about their business as usual, the sand was cool and the silica had given a silvery hue to the beach...not even a single VENDOR or thele wala in sight. in short it was me and the nature having an undisturbed talk, and for a moment i felt at home, i felt i was in Udaipur, nearby the Fateh Sagar lake, talking to the stars....



It has been too long since i slept in her lap,
too long since i looked in her eyes and rejuvinated,
too long since i watched her smile,
too long since i screamed out..mom and saw her too.